by Brennan Hamrin
Around this time last year I was pregnant, extremely sick and frantic. We had just been given 60 days to pack up our family of 5 and find a new home. I know this may not seem like the most traumatic circumstances (Although when your pregnant everything seems a lot more traumatic than it truly is!) but this was the 11th time in our 9 years of marriage that we would move. When we were younger and had less stuff (and fewer children!) it was easier. But we had just moved into the house we were renting barely a year before that and hadn’t even unpacked all the boxes from that move. I had so many concerns about moving- my son possibly having to switch schools, finances, morning sickness, etc. We hoped to be able to buy a house. However, we weren’t sure we were financially ready or would be able to find one that fit our needs in the 3 weeks we had to get an accepted offer. At the time I was reading in Psalms and read chapter 62 verses 5-8:
“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.”
I could hear the Lord clearly speaking to my heart from the page, “Trust me! I am Your refuge and I want to show myself mighty on your behalf!” Trusting the Lord can be a tricky business though! I say that I trust Him, sometimes I even think that I’m trusting Him, but all the while I’m trying to fix things on my own. Psalm 9:1 says, “I will recount all of Your wonderful deeds.” The Lord convicted me that often times I limit Him and hinder Him from performing miracles because I choose to try and fix it myself. How many times in my life has God wanted to do the miraculous and I haven’t let Him? Instead of standing still and seeing God save I move ahead and try to take care of things in my own strength. I had also been reading “Morning and Evening” by C.H. Spurgeon and the devotion for that evening was based on Mark 9:23. A man had brought Jesus His demon possessed son and asked Jesus to help, if He could do anything. Jesus said, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Spurgeon went on to say, “(Jesus) seemed to say, ‘there should be no “if” about my power, nor concerning my willingness, the “if” lies somewhere else.’ If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believes… All things, without limit, are possible to him that believeth. My soul, canst thou believe thy Lord tonight?” In light of all the Lord was showing me I poured out all my worries and concerns (and lets be honest, downright complaints!) before Him. I journaled, asking God to work a miracle in the situation so that I could look back on it and, like the Psalmist, recount His wondrous deeds. From that point on, I never wavered in my trust in Him. Ok, not really. But when I started to worry I made the choice to trust Him. Now as I sit here I look around at the house that we own, and (underneath all the mess) all that the Lord has blessed us with. It’s exceedingly abundantly beyond what I could have imagined. He cared about all the little concerns that I laid at His feet and He met those needs. Doesn’t He give such good gifts?! They don’t always come wrapped in the way that you want- like an eviction notice- but He is always doing what is best for His children. I’m so thankful, not just for how the Lord met my physical needs and desires, but for reminding me of such an important lesson. We can trust Him. He is our refuge and He will prove Himself mighty on our behalf! Whatever the Lord is doing, He wants to show Himself mighty on your behalf! So trust Him, stand back and watch Him do great things!